Long Covid, ME/CFS with Fibro and Trans-Walking to Target through Pain, Politics, and Healing

A Journey of Resilience: Walking to Target through Pain, Politics, and Healing In the midst of a world grappling with the ongoing COVID-19 pandemic, I embarked on a journey that would mark a turning point in my life—a walk to the pharmacy and Target. You see, I'm an older transgender woman who has been battling …

SOTU – Human ?

I know its a tiresome topic, politics, but bare with me here. Regarding House Speaker Nancy Pelosi ‘s human moment during the SOTU address. I say this as a women that used to be a privileged white male. I am now trans. Meaning that I never knew how good I had it until it was …

THE “NOW” OF BEING TRANSGENDER while living with CPTSD

Most transgender people have experienced massive amounts of euphoric joy in the coming out phase of transition. That feeling that brings about much confidence as you admit to yourself and to the world and shout out as loud as you can “I’m a female trapped in a man’s (or vice versa) body and I’m going …

THE LOST ART OF KEEPING A SECRET

That time Queens Of The Stone Age played my barAllow me to set the mood. It's 2005, I think. QOTSA are peaking, they are not new either, Established internationally. But they are an LA Band from the desert, Joshua Tree. Which I know is not Los Angeles. But at only 2 hours away in the …

Purple Rain(bow)

I write a lot of darkness. In telling my tale it is so required. Let's However now veer away and find light. Grab a cup of whatever, it’s early morning and not a cloud to be seen in the clear azure sky. The heat of the summertime, and the early angle of the sun shown …

I STAYED IN WONDERLAND

"Hollywood is a place where they'll pay you a thousand dollars for a kiss and fifty cents for your soul. I know, because I turned down the first offer often enough and held out for the fifty"- Marilyn Monroe I first moved to Los Angeles in 1988, with stars in my eyes. An aspiring Juke …

How I Intend to stay sober and positive during the holidays while in survival mode

Things in general in my life right now probably can't be considered amazing. My step mom might be on her death bed. The complications from cancer are mounting and she has a belly full of diseased cells. She's not quite 80 yet. My father is sad, I'm sad, and if it kills me, I intend …

5 Things I’ve learned from my transition thus far

Transition to the gender you see yourself as is hard. I don't think age matters although of course I regret that I didn't figure it out until my 40's but in some ways maybe it was good that I didn't. The 80s and 90s were not a supportive time to be trans for sure. Obama …

On rock and roll, anxiety, secret queer thoughts, and drug withdrawl

It was 1998 on a normally bright and sunny Sunday afternoon. Summertime in Southern California and I am sitting in the emergency room of Kaiser Permanente Hospital on Sunset Blvd, I had been there an hour or more, sitting between snotty crying babies and people of all cultures from the neighborhood. It felt pretty ghetto …

A queer Fathers Day

I feel like a father. Mother is a pronoun I do not identify with. I refer to myself as moppa, a pronoun I heard on the tv show Transparent. I mean when I’m filling out forms, I check female, I identify as a trans woman. I use she, her, hers, when I’m talking about myself …